I did it again.
I allowed myself to enjoy your company. I allowed you to wrap your arms around me.
I let your lips kiss my forehead. I let your heartbeat race against my body.
Why did you let this happen? Did you not know this effect you had on me?
We were just living in the moment, so why couldn’t those feelings just stay in that moment?
Why did they follow me home?
Now I have to put distance between us, again. Does “again” have to mean “forever” this time?
Fuckin’ A, I hope not.
I’m standing in front of you.
I was hoping that you grew
But that you was nothing but a tall tale.
You would’ve been number three,
But nothing about you grew.
That had me looking at pale.
Your heart is racing.
Your body is shaking.
The grey gravel catches your eyes.
They close tight, for you are not ready to see the end.
You are not ready to give up.
Why did you jump?
The gravel is now inches from you.
It’s your last chance to face it all, to be strong.
Your eyes open.
The grey cotton sheets catch you.
Tomorrow is here.